Birthday Suicide

Just thirteen I was,
For a moment my life was on pause,
I thought I had died,
I wanted to though,
Isn't that why I tried?
Too late it was when I realized I didn't want to go,
Blood dripping everywhere,
Everything was such a blur,
I made what I thought would be my last call,
Trying to stand holding the wall,
No one answered me,
Making my final plea?
How could this be,
I was so young and "happy"
Less then 24 hours and it would have been my birthday,
I would have given anything to stay,
It was too late,
I wrote my own fate

i no theres no such thing as trying to kill urself .. u either do it or dont right?