Behind My Closed Door

As i shut my door
a new world starts to appear
a world where i can let go my emotion
where i can show my true fear

you sit downstairs reading
no clue as to what's going on
my room is where i find my peace
where I'm free instead of being controlled like a pawn

if only you knew what went on
behind my closed door
would you then realize what you do
or would u continue to call me a wh*r*

in my galaxy of solitude
is where my deepest secrets lie
where i spend all those times cutting myself
even though i would never hurt a fly

it's where my imagination comes out
where all my creative juices start to flow
it's the place i go to escape and hide
it's the place i go to pour out my soul

you have no clue how i feel or think
when I'm in my hiding place
how in the morning i try to cover the truth with a smile
because sometimes its just to hard to face

this certain place i speak of
seems ordinary to you
but to me its something extraordinary
something of which no one knew

I'm a totally different person
behind this closed door
if i told you this is where i plan my ideas of starvation
would you think I'm crazy or try to understand

your scornful words and constant yelling
cuts me deep within
i never seem to meet your expectations
it's like being born was a complete and utter sin

i write these words to prove my point
that behind my closed door anythings possible
its my fortress where i take shelter at
when life seems to intense

as i calm down and regain my sanity
i open the door and the two worlds merge into one
don't you dare say that you understand or think I'm a wh*r*
because you have no idea what goes on behind my closed door