Alone

I am out of control
i did it again
another screw up
once more, i gave in

you gave me another chance
it was my last
but i betrayed you
and now "we" are the past

i meant no harm
it was just a gift
that i was trying to give
but the snow i did shift

now the avalanche is advancing
racing toward my death
and i can do nothing
but wait for my last breath

i have never felt so lonely
so awkward and out of place
all i want to do
is disappear-hide my face

but i have to smile
pretend i am fine
so people will like me
and friends will be mine

*i was trying to give this guy a gift for his birthday and my boyfriend got upset about it (long story). he didn't actually break up with me, though. and if he had broken up with me i would still have friends, but i would feel incredibly alone because i don't feel comfortable with my girl friends and i wouldn't have any guy friends left. its hard to explain. sorry this sucks so bad. please comment/vote if you can. thanks*