Do You?

Do you even notice me when he is there?
Do you even notice me pulling and tugging at my hair?
Do you even notice me cry whenever you turn and walk away?
Do you even notice how whenever he is near it ruins my day?
Do you even notice how your ditching all your true friends?
Do you even notice that sooner or later your relationship with him will end?
Do you even notice how big of an ass he is to all of us?
Do you even notice how you're leaving all of us in the dust?
Do you even notice how we feel?
Do you even notice that our actions to wards him aren't for play, they're for real?
Do you even notice how much this is all hurting me?
Do you even notice that you two are not meant to be?
Do you even notice how you two never even talked before you started dating?
Do you even notice how throughout it all we will not always be her for you waiting?
Do you even notice that no one thinks you two belong together?
Do you even notice that what we do and say to him will not get better?
Do you even notice how often you leave me standing there?
Do you even notice that to apologize to me you wouldn't dare?
Do you even notice we are trying to talk to you?
Do you even notice that pretending to like him as a friend we are through?
Do you even notice how you're letting him take my place?
Do you even notice the tears rolling down my face?
Do you even notice my heart is breaking?
Do you even notice that from all the anger my hands are shaking?
Do you even notice my soul falling apart?
Do you even notice how my heart is acting like the target and your actions are acting as the darts?
Do you even notice how you are falling in too deep?
Do you even notice that i cry myself to sleep?
Do you even notice that i feel like i am losing my best friend forever?
Do you even notice that i won't be here as your shoulder to cry on whenever?
Do you even notice that he is all you ever talk about?
Do you even notice how from your life we are slowly fadin out?
Do you even notice the cuts on my arm from you and him hurting me all the time?
Do you even notice that my life clocks bell is about to chime?
Do you even notice that no more what if's..it's now over...i'm gone.

© Jenna Elphick
November 6, 2004