My Escape

For so long i have wanted to escape,
from this home that I'm living in,
this kind of pain is the kind i just can't take,
I just can't stand another day wearing the fake grin.

For so long i have wanted to be loved,
wanted someone to hold me in their arms and make me feel they care,
but its my time to save myself and rise up above,
where the people around me know that i am there.

For so long i have wanted people to appreciate me for who i am,
and not for who they want me to be,
but my life is just one big scam,
I just want so bad to be free.

For so long i have wanted to fit in with my friends,
but i still feel like i don't,
to this i am going to put an end,
I have regretted many things I've done in life but this is one thing i know i won't.

For so long i have loved those that don't love back,
that kinda pain goes deep down and hurts through and through,
over the years my happy thoughts have slowly turned black,
It has been so long and i'm left curled up on the floor blood surrounding me and i don't know what to do.

For so long to put myself out of my misery is what i have tried,
but someone has always been there to stop me,
They made sure that i was alright and that my tears were eventually dried,
But this time i'm gonna do it unseen.

For so long i have been fighting against my life but todays the day i lose the fight,
for once and for all,
I will gain my wings and take flight,
be free of this world, finally take the fall.

© Jenna Elphick
November 7, 2004