I went to school like every other day
but never knew that this day would change my ways
me and my friend talked about the night before
we never knew what we had in store
we saw cops outside her home
my friend talked to her last night on the phone
something was telling him, he shouldn't have left her alone
his dad came to the school, the look in his eyes was rough
whatever it was that happened, i knew it was tough
i tried to think nothing of it, went on with my day
there was so much going on in my mind, i had nothing to say
after school i went and hung out with some friends
as much as i tried, those thoughts kept coming again and again
my dad came and picked me up, and told me the news
i sat there in shock, i didn't know what to do
the tears started to form, i could feel them in my eyes
i was hoping my dad was just telling me lies
he repeated to me again "a friend of yours has taken her life"
at this time i knew something wasn't right
i asked who it was although i already knew
he said it was cheney, she hung herself in her room
i got out of the car, told him i wanted to walk home
at this point in time i needed to be alone
when i got to my house, i picked up the phone
called my cousin troy, he drove to my home
i couldn't understand, this made no sense
all the feelings i had felt so intense
when he arrived to my house, i looked him in the eye
i could see the pain in his face, all i did was cry
my mom hugged me and said call if you need me
i was in pain, i know this she could see
the drive back to troys, not a word was said
there was too many thoughts running through our heads
we listened to depressing songs, to go along with how we feel
every single one of us didn't want this to be real
at this point i haven't talked to my friend all day
so i called him, we both didn't have much to say
we said we were coming to pick him up, he wanted to stay home
but we picked him up anyways, couldn't leave him alone
by now everyones faces were running in constant streams
we finally knew what the word life really means
every day the group of friends started to grow
we had to stick together, to school we couldn't even go
as the weeks went on, and the days went by
time felt like forever, all we did was cry
we were all pretty stupid thinking drinking would ease the pain
but things just got worse, we were playing the hate ourselves game
a month passes and we tried to at least do something
everything we tried, we would just cry and do nothing
so many thoughts were running through my head
most of them telling me i was better off dead
at this point I'm taking cheneys passing so bad
i couldn't even imagine the pain felt from her mom and dad
we kept hanging out with them as much as we could
just like we always would
it probably means the most for us to stay being their friends
and be there for them all the way till the end
something happened when i was drunk one night
i gave up all my reasons to fight for life
i did some things i knew i shouldn't have done
but i was really drunk, all i wanted to do was be gone
i was getting help finally, that was the right thing to do
as much as i wanted to leave, my family and friends didn't want me to
i was admitted into the phsyc ward, longest week of my life
finally everything was starting to feel right
my friends visited me all the time
thoughts like they actually cared were filling my mind
i got out and spent all my time with my friends
we have to stick together and be strong, knowing this is not the end
because one day we will all be with her in heaven
the pain we feel is so strong
we finally feel the pain she felt for so long
she was different and beautiful in every way
every time i saw her and that smile, she filled light into my day
i wish i could have said goodbye, or even know why
so i wouldn't have to sit here each and everyday and cry
i feel the presence of her around me everywhere
but i reach out my hand and shes not even there
i never thought things could get so bad
that she had to take things into her own hands
we will try and smile for her as much as we can
because we have to be here for all of our friends
here on earth is where we want to stay
but we didn't want to be trapped in these rainy days
it seems like this pain will never go away
i wish there was something i could do or say
but there isn't shes gone
we have to try and move on
if anything her passing has made everyone so strong
the only way to help this problem, is to stick together
because she'll be in our hearts and friendship lasts forever
we will always be there for each other
her passing has made everyone become so close
we know this is what she would want, that means the most - Kasper-
