That goes deep. I can't put into words as to incredible that was. I just want to say that I have not experienced any of that, but my family has gone through alot and a lot of them have depression. I know it may not be any of my business, but I was just wondering if you have been holding that knife in your hand because if you need someone to talk to I would be more than glad to help you out. Also I was wondering if you would like to check out my poem it's called Dark World, it might be somewhat related to yours but quite a few differences. If you want you can email me at manda_panda68@yahoo.com, I would greatly appreciate it.