To daddy

Raise up my sleeves
and tell me that you never hurt me,
continue to tell me that it is out of love
when the cuts are clear to see...
your cruel words drown upon my heart
and push me into self destruction
i take the razor to eat my flesh-
no one understands my hearts eruption.
maybe if you hit me a time or two
and leave me a couple of bruises
people could see why, then, i hurt
but the emotional pain you provide is still abuse.
each day grows upon the next
and my depression, my thoughts, m cuts get bigger
everytime you open your mouth
and i keep reminding myself it only takes one pull of the trigger.
for when I'm gone and out of your life
you may realize the permanent pain you've caused but before you were so blind.
someday i hope your conscience eats you alive
but as of now, the pain is all mine.