Hand Me The Gun

This lump in my throat
Just won't go away,
There are just so many things
I would like to say.

Does it hurt you to see
The pain in my eyes?
Can you see how tired I am
Of all the selfish lies?

When you were down
I gave you my heart,
Who knew you would
Make my world fall apart.

I gave you a hand
When you weren't strong,
I was too in love to see
You were dragging me along.

Why can't you love me
The way that I love you?
It must be too great a challenge
For you to do.

You made me feel worthless
Just not good enough,
You weren't willing to stand by me
When things looked tough.

It's not like I can blame you
The fault was all mine,
I know I'm just a huge waste
Waste of your time.

I knew it all along
I guess you could say,
Who in their right mind
Would love me anyway?

My days all seem longer
My vision is blurry,
Somebody help me
I've got the gun.. hurry!

Just one bullet
And the nightmare is finished,
Say goodbye to my hopes and dreams
My prayers.. diminished.

Maybe now you'll be happy
And not so confused,
I'll leave you my heart
Although it's tattered and bruised.

Then you can study it
Find out what made me break,
Maybe then you'll be the one
Praying for me to awake.

- 11/09/04 -