*~I thank god~*

My life's in such misery
I've loss myself without realizing
I feel like I'm no longer me
Like anyone cares
Pain is all that i feel
But no one seems to see
I'm so tired of everything
I wish i could just leave
Not giving two hoots 'bout what's around me
But if i were to do that,
What will be left of me
I don't seemed to be able to speak up
Not that anyone cares to listen
And even if they did,
I wouldn't think they will ever understand
Nor the pain will lessen
I'm still hanging on
Though no one bothers
There's still one that really care
That's this special friend of mine
She's the only one that's keeping me going
Urging me to keep walking
She blocks all that's behind me
All, that's stopping me to even move
And so when i turn back and look,
It is her that i see
She always assure: "I'm always here with you. Though i may not be there physically, my heart is always with you."
I'm always hurting her with my words though
Thinking that she's just acting like she cares
I hope she doesn't take it to heart
As i really don't mean what I've said
I thank god for bringing her into my life
And pray that, may lord bless me with the strength to carry on...