It is sad to think that yesterday you were mine
i held you inside me and you were there heartbeating, silently but still there
but today i woke up and felt something was wrong
i felt my own stomach and felt no movement and nothing at all
i call the doctor and within an hour i was dressed and waiting in the familiar place
but instead of my usual smile and warmth inside
all i felt was a cold breath of death
i was crying before i entered the examine room, i knew you were gone
the doctor came in and did a few quick vital and within a few seconds knew my assumptions were correct
she said they needed to get you out
i cried and said no just leave you inside
i hoped that somehow that would bring you back
they held me down as i screamed and sobed, my whole body shaking with fear
i never knew pain until this day when i felt then yank and pull
i"am sorry" they said, "it will be out soon" and all i could say was "she"
then all i saw was a puddle of red and a small figure curled up in a ball
"my baby" i said i wanted to hold you but they took you away and stuffed you in a white plastic bag
the nurse cleaned up the mess and helped me clean myself
i left the office all alone and by myself
i didnt look back until i saw a man walking out the back door carrying a white plastic bag
he dropped it in a green dumpster nearby
after he left i lifted the lid and waved to you good bye blew you a kiss
"good bye my sweet, i am so sorry, i love you will all my heart..."
-To my baby...Aura my soft breeze...due to be born May 16, 2005...Died November 5, 2004
