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by Amie Nov 10, 2004 category : Sadness, depression / other
I hate myself, I want to die. Let the pain, go through my veins. Every time I cut, it never goes deep enough. Each time I try, the blood doesn't pour as much. I'm drowning, in my own sadness. My life is a lie, I am a screw-up. Weak is my body, death is in my mind. My stomach twists and turns, at the thought of living another day. Confused and in pain, as I stare into the darkness. How has my life, become so empty? I dread each and everyday, my future is a blur. I just want to close my eyes, and disappear....I'm giving up. I've lost myself, in all of this. No one can stop it, but me. The problem is, I can't stop it. It's become me, all that I think of. Can anyone tell me, what my problem is? Is there anyway, this pain inside me can be erased? I feel so dead, yet I am still living.... Maybe one day the blade will go deep enough, the blood will pour and I will be happy.