Confused Bout Cuttin Again.....

Cutting confuses things
messes with my mind
when everything seems simple and right
one little cut
throws me into a abyss
things change my minds disarranged
lefts turned to right
it's funny how something i use to love so much
can cause this much disgust
don't get me wrong
it still plays its part
in helping me heal
to cover the pain
that seems so unreal
bleed it to make me feel
but now it doesn't seem right
after weeks of going right
one simple cut
can throw all that out of sight
like the blood fills your mind
clouding your vision clouding your sight
it's a disease i just cant get right inside my mind
little red slashes now replace left and right
i don't need order now to survive
i can just lie
blame it on the cat its all i have
see how things have changed black is now white
everything is out of sight

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I made this to show how it feels to go from cutting one day to thinking you are stopping....to cutting again. It confuses everything, and makes everything seem bad again and you get addicted even more than you were the first time...Please rate...and enjoy...thanks
~Tasha Angelia~