Amber I'm not supposed to feel like this, I'm scared that because of whats going on right now is just going to tear us apart and make us go our separate ways and I don't want that to happen to us cause it will just hurt more, I'm not supposed to make you feel like you cant talk to me or even be around me anymore cause of this, i never meant to make this happen but what you did to me has made me think of you in a different way and I'm sorry that you had to find out, i wasn't supposed to let you find out, i never wanted it to change our friendship but it has and we barely even talk or hang out anymore, i want us to be able to hang out and talk more then usually but ever since you knew i liked you it changed everything between us we got in more arguments then expected, i feel like something in our friendship has just died, and i don't want us not to be friends cause of this, i know we wont ever be the same again, i know we wont go back to what we use to be, but at least cant we try to be the same again, i hate seeing you get hurt by the same person, it hurts to much to see ou get hurt, your smiling on the outside but deep down inside i know your not okay, people cant see that but i can, cause I'm your friend, don't think of me a different way just cause i like you but think of me as just your friend, i know it wont be easy but it can if you put your mind to it, amber i don't want us being like this, I'm changing for the better not the worst, I'm not changing cause of you I'm changing cause i need to, dammit amber, you touched my heart in a way no one else has and it hurts to know you will never like me but i understand that you have found some one right for you and I'm glad you have, I'm glad that you love her and I'm glad she loves you, but if she ever hurts you, you know I'm here to talk too, and I'm here to lend a shoulder for you to cry on,but damn amber i hate feeling like this and being like this
