There are days
i wake up draped in the instinct
that you'd rather me go away
my mind plays dark games
as if there's something it needs to say
the eyes of my common sense feel sealed shut
though i try to keep them open
because you'll leave a hint
about how you feel as long as i don't blink
Every word has a veiled smirk
the notes and compliments meant for someone else
the dream i live is truly a dream
the things i live for are false
that's where my smiles halt
the shit i should heed
i take in and then just bleed
as i help feed all your endless sheer greed
and the attention you demand
brings me up to die
hangs me on a cross
dripping tears of my hearts blood
never stopping my eyes continuous cries
but instead force me to love and watch these lies
the repertoire looks
to follow another book's fictional tales
makes you another martyr
just plundering my heart's love
you don't have to look upon your face
after the kiss you'll never see upon your face the depressing disgrace
reading through through the lies
everyone can see your feelings are fake
that and every kiss for me was another one of your mistakes
these memories i doubt will be erased
so in-case
just kill me
kill me just in-case
kill me so i may leave this place
the malice is to much for my heart that aches
as long as i hear your name
all of this will dreadfully stay the same
with you another smiled is gained
from inducing into me all this pain
i'm forever scarred with the engraved stain
but at least you could stop the words that are meant for fairy tales
just leave me be
and let me heal my vacillated heart
and embark on for a new start.
