This is why

You always ask "Why"
why would i do this
why take this knife and draw this blood
why do this to myself
you always ask why i have to make the cuts so deep
well i have to cause myself more pain
than you have caused me
in order to heal
in order to make myself feel better
to feeel the relief
i have to feel more pain from myself
than that which you have caused
that is why my cuts are so deep
and with everything you do
everything you say
slowly increasing my hurt
the cuts get deeper
the scars last longer
so be careful just how much you hurt me
beacuse the more you hurt me
the more i hurt myself
don't push me too far
don't hurt me too badly
theres only so much i can take
so just be careful
because i just might not be here some day

***not a cutter***