Before I closed my eyes

Laying on my cold bed
Staring at the sky
I wonder If I’m really dead
Did I really say goodbye ?

Did I really quit my life
To leave everything behind ?
Did I really take the knife
Because there was nothing I could find ?

I see blood everywhere
I’m starting to feel fear.
I can feel despair
While shredding a single tear.

I swear I’m sorry
For everything I did wrong
Oh please, mommy,
Sing to me a last song...

This question runs in my head
Did I really want to die ?
I remember it’s the last thing I said
Before I closed my eyes.