A suicide- your free now

I can't find words
to describe how much i miss you
i can't even comprehend
what you must have been through

the more i think about it
the more i can't help but cry
there was nothing i could do
except hold you while you died

i didn't notice how much blood there was
untill you were taken away
i was covered completly in blood not my own
but your mothers clothes weren't the same

it breaks my heart every day
that you would have died alone
if i hadn't come to find you
you never would have known...

just how much that i love you
how much that i care
and how much i wish i could have helped
and your life would be spared

what is going on in this world?
and why arn't you still in it?
i ask myself these questions
every waking minute

one thing i know is that your gone
you made that choice yourself
you took your own life at the age of fifteen
with the prayer that it would help

i lost you that day
and to this moment i continue to cry
i know your looking down on me
so im asking you to now be free and to fly

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this poem is about how my little cousin killed herself and i found her just before she died. i wrote it because i still miss her and i cant believe we live in a world where her mother was worried about blood on the carpet so i was the only one near her when she died. it breaks my heart to know that people can be so cold. i hope everyone who reads this can see that you have to tell the ones you love how much you care and it may just keep them in your lives.
please comment, this poem really means alot to me and i want to know what you all think. thanx.