Painful Addiction

You don't know what it's like
and you will never understand.
This addiction I have
I know many have.
All you see is me hurting myself
All I see is the scars in my heart.
I cut myself to see if I can bleed
and take all the emotions away.
Saying it makes it sound stupid
but you do not know how I feel.
Everything is so bottled up inside
the hurt, anger, resentment, and pain.
So don't tell me it will be okay
Don't even tell me it's not worth it.
This addiction is part of me
and I'm trying to over take it.
It's something I must change
and there is nothing you can do.