Suicide Note

Up to my neck, I hold a knife.
This is how, I will take my life.
I have this feeling,
like I don't belong.
Don't lie,
I know I'm not wrong.
I look at the phone, it starts to ring.
I just sit there. Don't do a thing.
Maybe this is a very wrong choice.
I don't care. No one ever heard my voice.
I start to scream as the pain gets worse.
I start to get scared and close my eyes.
I think of how many times I believed your lies.
I'm feeling a little dizzy.
And I remember how no one will care or even notice.
My need for love, is nothing but hopeless.
So here I take my finale breath.
I feel my heart pounding deep in my chest.
I have my very last thoughts.
I think to myself 'I can't take that much'.
I press the knife deep in my throat.
I hope you don't mind.
That I blood-stained this coat.