Stacie.....

Dear Stacie,

I wish you could see all that is going on inside of me....All I really feel is confusion because way deep down all I want is love but all people see is the changed side of me..I used to be so sweet and kind and then one day it all went away...I no longer cared and I no longer wanted to try..all I wanted was to go away and that is all I have been trying to do...For I can see I am changing for the worst...Can't you see...I lost everyone...Dani..Vito...Charmed...Terry...Miguel...Whitney...
Monica...Louisa...Julez...and many more..I guess that is good because now I will no longer hurt them by being me..because being me is just a nightmare to anyone that is around me..I really don't know why I have changed..Why I let one stupid heartbreak get the best of me but I have...I don't know why I have pushed all of you away..because honestly..you were the best thing that ever happened to me...So I guess all I can say now not only to you but to all of the others that can no longer trust me and believe in me and don't even want to talk to me any longer is...I am sorry for everything...I am sorry for changing...I am sorry for being me.. If I could take back everything I have said and done I would but I cant... I do still love you all and I say this from the bottom of my heart...Thank you Stacie for staying by my side and never leaving it..Even now after all I have said and after all the hurt I have caused you...I can see that you are truly the best friend anyone could ever ask for...I hope one day you will see that all I ever wanted was someone other than the love of my life to love and care for me...I found it in you because you are the only one that is still here and you are the only one that still cares..Out of all my friends..It was you...I am forever in debt to you.. I love you Stacie...Please forgive me...