Selfish

I know you think I'm selfish
just because i like unleashing my anger on my wrists.
but I'm not doing it to hurt you.
it's just something i have the urge to do.
it's the only way I've learned to deal with my pain.
by cutting through my wrists with this sharp cold blade.
i know it's not something you'd get.
and i definitely know you'll never accept it.
but why do you have to look so hurt when you see the cuts.
cause the look of hurt in your eyes drives me nuts.
i know i always said I'd never hurt you purposely.
and since hurting myself is hurting you I'll try to stop, honestly
though i can't promise you I'll never pick up a blade
but i will promise to stop and think first and picture your face.