It was hard to believe, someone I looked up to was suddenly gone.
Left the world; leaving me tattered and torn.
I felt a piece of my heart had been taken away.
Being gone forever, when I thought it would stay.
I could not’t accept the fact I would never see them again.
My life had become different from when it began.
Then one day we finally met.
It was a memorable night ill never forget.
Everyone warned me, you were bad news.
But I did not care you made me happy and took away my blues.
I later went to bed and re-played the whole night.
Coming to the conclusion that everything felt right.
I did not see you for ages, you did not even call.
I started to believe everyone was right after all.
I moved on with my life and put you out of my mind.
But you still wanted to see me, I found that hard to find.
I finally worked up the courage to give you a call.
I dialled numbers starting to stall.
Thinking about what will happen, or what you will say.
We spoke and decided to meet up later that day.
We hung out and had a great time, and then we started to go out.
I felt myself falling for you without a doubt.
As quick as ever a month had been.
And you still were the most amazing guy I had ever seen.
But something had happened, you got so distant.
I thought maybe this was not meant.
I did not understand how something so positive
Could just like that; turn into something negative.
You broke it off and went on your way.
I was left shattered not knowing what to say.
You had once filled the empty space in my heart.
But again it was empty; I was back at the start.
I did not know what to do.
Should I let it be, and forget about you.
It wasn not as easy as I thought it would be.
Everyone said I would find someone new, but they could not see.
I did not want to be with anyone new.
Even if it meant we were only friends, I still wanted to be with you.
I thought I was fine and could go on being your friend.
I did not know how to act around you, but I did not want our friendship to end.
I was going well until my predictions had come true.
You had gone back, it was something I had never thought through.
I was not mad at you for that, it was the fact that you had lied.
If you had of been open and honest, then maybe I would not have of cried.
I started to recall everything you had once said.
Wondering if you really meant it; or if you even cared.
I could feel the damage again, stabbing me.
I did not want to feel this way, I wanted to be free.
I could want you forever, I could want you today.
If not you’ll be in my heart and forever you’ll stay.
Always in my memories, to precious to forget.
I believe I loved you, and that is something I will never regret.
