Holding It All In

I thought I could do this
I thought I would be OK
I thought that life would get better
I can’t live this way

I pray every night
I pray for your love
I pray for security
To the man up above

I hope I will get better
I hope the pain will stop
I hope you will come back
I want the stress level to drop

The anxiety is killing me
The worry is way too deep
The thought of being alone
From my blue eyes tears seep

I am holding it all in
I can’t live to expectation
I just want to be normal
Not a person of self mutilation.