What Did I Do? 1st time posting please tell me what u think

Spacing aint right sry

The tears keep rolling down my face, Like the rain.
What did I do to deserve such pain???
All I do is try to be the best i can.
But obviously that is not good enough for you.
Oh...What did I do??

I cant take but so much.
Before I want to give up.
I want to turn and run form all my fears.
But I cant for too many would shed tears.
Oh god please...from me to you
I am begging, Tell me what did I do???

Please tell me what I can do..
What can I do to make it good enough for you...
I make mistakes...Yet some are bigger than others.
I still learn from them all...
Oh..You better come fast cause I'm starting to fall.

Oh.. You better come quick...
For i am getting further and further down.
I have a smile on my face and not a frown
All this because i don't know why.
Please tell me now what did i do????

I have hit the bottom, Now I want back up.
I told you that I cant take but so much.
I start to look, looking around
Oh...Look at what i have found lying on the ground
A razor blade.. I know I shouldn't but I started to smile.
I pick it up..I know i should throw it a mile

I pick the razor up and place it on my wrist.
While i have my other hand n a fist.
I pull the razor slowly toward me.
I am watching the blood drip like wine form a bottle into a glass.

Oh why, why couldn't I have some1 by my side
WHY???? OH WHY????
What did I do to deserve such pain
As I sit here my tears run down my face like the rain

Its too late, you didn't make it in time.
Oh why couldn't you have come 1 minute sooner.
For i didn't want my life to end like this.
Now that I did as i told you i wanted.
Which was to turn and run away from all my fears.
Look.. look what I have done now.. i made all these people shed these tears.

Oh.. PLEASE God..Now that I am with you
Tell me what did i do???