I know you\'ll never know this
so the only thing I can do is reminisce
I was the oldest, the ine who gave you hell
I\'m not really sure why I did what I did
I kept my feelings in I guess I hid
But it wasn\'t always like this
there wasn\'t always pain
for i knew you felt the same
I\'ll never forget the memories dad
I still live with your name
I\'m hurting and I\'m scared
I never knew you\'d leave me and wouldn\'t be there
I wish you could come back b-cuz I feel angry
I said things I didn\'t mean, I let you see worst of me
I\'ll never forget the way you died for the pictures play over in my mind
Lile one bad dream that never stops
I still see the faces you made as you bled there on the floor
or what you told me as you came through the door
you said you were going to die
I thought it was a lie
but nope your\'e gone and I can\'t move on
I\'m not sure who to hate or who to be mad at
I just miss you near
You\'ll never die to me
For I can\'t let it be
You may not be here to my face
or I may not feel your hands
But your\'e not far
And one day I\'ll be where you are!
