Pain

As i feel the pain hit me,
i can feel myself breaking up inside,
as people convince me,
that I'm not normal,
i feel like I'm not wanted,
so whats the point in sticking around,
should i end it all,
or keep going through pain,
as i think to myself,
i reach for a sharp pointed blade,
as it starts to slide through my skin,
i don't feel the pain,
i cant feel the pain,
the pain is already there,
and i want that pain to disappear,
that pain fads as i head for a dark hole,
i chose the worst,
and now i feel nothing at all.