So confused

Why am I so lonely?
I thought u were my friend
U left me with a broken heart
A heart that won’t be mend.

I can’t express the hate I feel
Cuz in a way I love u
But I can get better
But will that love be true?

I have so many questions about love
And will I ever find Mr. Right?
Cuz what I have with u isn’t love
When all we do is fight.

Why did u come in to my life?
Why did u leave me like this?
Why did u fool me?
With a warm and tender kiss.

I’m not trying to hurt u
But in a way I played u
Cuz all we did was to f ck
And u knows that is true.

Maybe we should just let it be
Oh what am I saying?
I’m not ready to let u go
I’m not finished with my playing.

When I think about it
Things aren’t that bad
And when I think about it
I don’t have any reason to be sad

So let’s keep up the f cking
That’s between me and u
And maybe if we’re lucky
Our love will be true.

Hi people.. like everybody else writes this is my first poem and plz don't be hard to me.. this is about my boyfriend.. hope u guys like it..