Little do they know

In my room, all in the dark
Thinking of my poor life
Heart ached inside,
no one around…
Tired of the same,
Fake smile, Real frown.
Vulnerable.
Longing to be happy
Hating to be sad.
No one but myself to blame.
No control what so ever.
Letting my feelings show
Emotions letting go
But no one is here to witness.
No one will ever know.
No one can hear my cries,
I'm yelling inside
Going out of my mind.
Little do they know
What I'm bout to do
To heal myself tonight.
I know this all seems weak
But I'll let it carry me
just tonight
I'm going with the flow
and I know this isn't me.