I never really had

You talked behind my back,
Thinking I’ll never know,
But then it hurt so bad
Because you let it show

You allowed me into your group
But always left me out
You were all together, forever
Always leaving me in doubt

I didn't know what to do
The one’s I had always trusted
Suddenly left me with no one
I was so incredibly disgusted

Then, I had no one to run to
I had no where to go
Because you all betrayed me
You weren’t who I thought, long ago

Days later, I found myself depressed
I had no more friends - none at all
My one and only group
Had a laugh at watching me fall

I found myself crying – all hours of the day
I no longer slept at night
I was hiding everything, from everyone
And didn’t know how to put up this fight

You all put me though Hell
And not one of you was ever there
You simply laughed at my tears
Even telling me – you really didn’t care

So, though you’ll always have each other,
I can never trust any of you, again
And I’m glad you’re out of my life
‘Cause I could never forgive you for what happened back then

But now you’re jealous that I’m happy
Which confuses me the most
And shows you want me to be sad,
Which I think is totally gross

So, with all said and done,
I will say goodbye
To the friends – I never “really” had
The ones who only made me cry