It scares me when I ask myself
What is the meaning of life?
Then I start to cry
Noticing I don't want to be here
And it'll probably end soon
Not knowing if I end it
What will I miss?
It feels like I'll be alone forever
Never to recieve a kiss
Will I ever have kids?
Have a husband to come home to?
Have something in life
I can look forward to
When I was little
The perfect life for me
To just go home everyday
And live normally
I always wanted to have two kids
And a mini-van
Be a teacher
Live with my man
Everything was normal
No outrageous dreams
Makes me kind of sad
How my life could be
Me not knowing
Not wanting to be me
I don't want to live
I want to lose everything
And these feelings are scaring me
I thought I was fine
And then depression struck me
What will I lose
If I were to die right now?
Theres nothing to life
At least not for me
What makes me double think
Are the people who love me
Friends, Family
People I care most too
People who I never can impress
People I always seem to fail
No one sees
How I really feel
No one sees
How I wish I was dead
People that keep me here
Disapearing everyday
I wish I could find some help
But I don't want people to know
I don't want to let this out
People shouldn't know
Lock away myself
And open all my fears
I'm really scared
I always think of ways
To become dead
Knife, pills, a bad accident
These thoughts really scare me
How I could see me hanging there
People finding me
Striking them with fear
What do people do
When they no longer know themselves
Some people let go
While others find help
What will I do
I have nothing to live for
I don't want to be gone
But yet I do
So many thoughts in my head
Lost in them
Maybe one day I'll find help
Before it's too late
Get rid of these thoughts
Be able to escape
These thoughts are what I keep
Hidden to the world
No one will know
No one will be told
Not a thing will be heard
Hidden is what they'll remain
