A Kiss

I didn't realize it
Until it was to late
The pain was so addicting
It erased all the hate
Every night i wait and i wait
And as I'm writing this
The only thing i want
Is a razor blade kiss
The kiss of love
The kiss of fate
The kiss of death
The kiss of hate
It use to happen monthly
Then it turned to days
Now its down till seconds
Controlling my life in so many ways
Every breath I take
Every move I make
Everything I do
Is revolved around every cut I make
The blood
The Pain
The addiction
Its all so insane
I can't go a second
Without the blade on my mind
I'll be back in a second
I hope you don't mind.....
I'm back I'm sorry
Another cut I had to make
I'm seriously not sure
How much more I can take
I made up mind
Well I think the blade did
I m coming out now
My feelings no longer hid
I'm dying tonight
Good bye to all
I'm dying tonight
Screw it all

*** Sorry all my poems suck i can't come up With anything since the accident***