Self Battle

You look at me as if I'm not suffering
I'm in my own battle
that you cant see
I get light headed easily
I've changed my diet
Becomming weight obsessed
I need to be thinner and thinner
I'm not thin enough yet
Every time I lose a pound its not enough
I need to lose more and more
You dont really notice because I wear baggy clothes
I dont want you to really see
How much this is affecting me
I wish that you would ask more questions
I wish you would see whats happening
Somehow friends can always see when ones suffering
But,My suffering is silent
Hidden by all of the gossip and false laughter
By boys and school
My suffering is hurting me beyond repair
I want you to know
I want you to see
Whats really happening to me