12 a.m. on IRC*

12 a.m. on IRC,
Your words fell gently like flowers across the screen;
And exploded like fireworks in my mind.
…I was hooked.

11 hours crawled by,
I couldn’t wait to talk to you again.
To taste your sweetness again,
And feel that someone cared.

10 days came and passed,
The sky seemed bleaker without your presence;
I realized then that I had fallen hard for you,
Your little gestures having touched me deeply.

9 minutes to midnight,
When it had felt like another round of fruitless waiting,
When it seemed like just another night of suffering,
You came on-line.

8 indescribable feelings cruised through me,
Each making me more confused and dismal;
I was happy, relieved, yet angry;
I kept quiet about it.

7 days passed with my spirits lifting day by day,
Unwittingly I had confided in you,
Of all my deepest and darkest thoughts;
I trusted you.

6 pm the next day,
I came home upset and depressed.
Your words were like raindrops,
Falling across the screen and cheering me up.

5 weeks later,
You met someone new;
You were excited like a little kid,
I was aching inside.

4 months flew by.
I had never spoken to you again.
I had lost you,
Lost someone who used to care.

3 words appeared on my screen suddenly;
“ I miss you ”.
We had a long talk,
But my sky would never be as blue again.

2 hours into talking you mentioned her,
I knew I had never gotten you back;
Yet as I continued to wallow in my sadness,
I realized that I couldn’t possibly lose something I never had in the first place.

1 last kiss and one last sob,
As my cursor hovered near the Block button;
Miss me well and miss me good,
Think of me; I’ll remember you too.

12 months I had known you,
You had cried with me when I cried,
You had smiled while I was happy,
How could things have changed so much?

*IRC: Internet Relay Chat
** This is for gerard, to tell him that, i'm sorry. sorry for choosing the easier way out instead of making things clear.**