I didn’t see me falling...

I didn’t see me falling
I do not want to care
Yet I’m feeling sensations
That I know before weren’t there
It scares me coz I’m sinking
And I feel I can’t return
From this pit of such emotion
That I have yet to learn
How to command, control
So I might better shield my soul
From letting you in,
Though I fear it’s too late
I’m feeling love and not the hate
That I had taught myself to show
When my heart said yes
but my head said no...

...Now that heads saying yes,
but its all too fast.
I’m not used to my thoughts being so overcast
So unclear and unsure
It seems that all that made sense before
Goes out the window when it comes to you
My common sense is lost, my head seizes to function
I’m obsessed with a boy on a path of self destruction
That’s deeper than deep
I can’t stop my worrying and
I’m now losing sleep
But not coz I’m dreaming
Of being with you
It’s because I’m unsure of what I should do

I don’t want to chase u,
I have some self respect
Not that u have bestowed in me
But that which I can’t seem to let,
Slip away,
Though I feel it trying
I feel myself dying
to voice every word
that scrolls through my head
till I’m begging my tongue to lay still in its bed
to not say those three words, it longs to declare
I won’t let myself do it, could I be so unfair
For they won’t be returned,
though I mean them so much
This is a situation I thought I’d never touch
You think you are strong
That no one can break
Those walls you’ve built
And cause you heartache
It seems I’ve confided
That I own a love that’s all one sided
In you, my page
and not the boy that feeds my rage
It’s hard but true
Unrequited love…I hate you

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