The girl inside of me

If you look beyond my fake smiles
And all of my material things
You will see a crying child
A little girl who's dying to scream

She covers up her past
With smiles that bring pain
She hides behind a mask
So no one sees her tears drain

She fights to be perfect
But gets no where close
She wishes she was normal
But just doesn't fit the pose

Shes scared to get close
with the people who care
not knowing who to trust
But hoping they'll be there

She dreads to see tomorrow
Because she hurts from yesterday
And shes numb to all the pain
That is brought on by today

She stays up crying all night long
Wishing things were right
Living her life in darkness because
the truth is revealed in light

She prays that God will send
Her someone who understands
Begging him for help
From a loving guiding hand

She needs someone to tell her
That shes going to be OK
Instead of people telling her
"You'll get over it some way"

All the pain she feels
Is all locked up inside
Shes searching for a way out
Shes tired of having to hide

With every pain filled tear drop
That slowly rolls down her face
Shes remembers painful things
That continue to steal her grace

I am wishing for the day
When everyone will see
All the hurt thats in my heart and
The little girl who cries in me