People i did love

I try and take the pain away
by cutting
i always thought that maybe if i did that
it would all just go away the next day

but it didn't
the pain just kept
coming and coming

i never actually realized
that it wasn't going away
so i kept cutting
thinking the same thing

now the people that did love me
just went away
like i was nothing
to them
like i was worth less

now the people that love me
actually don't
but say they do
just to see if i will stop

nothing can stop me
from doing what i want to do
when i want to stop
i will

the people that did love me
just flew away one day
with out saying good bye

they just left me
here all by my self
thinking i can do it
on my own
but i actually can't

the people that love me
just wont leave me alone
they may love me
but cant i get sometime alone

I'm a cutter
so people say
but in my mind

i don't call it that
its just something i do
to take my pain away