Addiction to the blade

Cover up my scars
hide them from the world
theres no reason to let them see
that the pain inside
is killing me

the tears come at night
when no ones around
I'm so lost
that i can not be found

I'm hurting so much
it makes me want to die
why do i keep going?
why do i still try?

my best friend is just like me
it kills me more when she cuts
but i don't say anything
i just let it be

i try to be happy
i really do
but its all an act
it sorta helps me to get through

i have some great friends
and I'll love them 'til the end
but they don't understand
what I'm going through
so they don't know what to do

i wish the pain would go
i wish it would disappear
but i know, that as time goes by
the addiction to the blade will grow