One day my mother and I had a fight,
One thing led to another,
And I lost all my sight,
And i couldn’t see but I remember I lost my mother,
Because I was so scared,
I killed her,
I shouldn't have done that because I was not prepared,
But everything was just a blur,
Everything happened I couldn't save her,
I tried my hardest to save her life,
I was so hurt I didn't remember where we were,
That night my daddy lost his first and only wife,
My brother lost his mom,
We lost years that we could of spent together,
And she never got to see us go to our first prom,
She never got to meet her grandchild Heather,
Now I have to tell my kid’s story's about how my mom was never there,
I could never tell them stories,
That my mommy stayed up all night to talk and do my hair,
My mommy never did those things because she was never here,
But when that day comes for me to tell them what really happened,
For now she was just never here,
It was like I was abandoned,
And i never had a mother to call me dear,
My mother never said the 3 words I wanted her to,
I Love You was all I wanted to hear,
Even if she did they would never be totally true,
In my life she was the only one I really ever did fear,
My kids will never know the truth about how their mom killed their grandmother,
If they ever did find out I would never forgive my self,
And if my brother did tell them about our mother,
I dont think he could forgive himself,
On that day 22 years ago if I didn't get pregnant,
Me and my mother would have never had a fight that was so incredibly rare,
Instead I could have told my kids about,
How my mother was always there.
