Why must I forever cry myself to sleep every night
Soaking my pillow with tears of sorrow and pain
These rivers have flown down my face too many times
Why must I create these tides of crimson liquid
Which stain my floor with every cut I make
Too many scars have I drawn upon my body
Why must I let this passionate hate I feel for me keep growing
Slowly killing myself with my thoughts of disgust and loathing
I’ve insulted myself for way too many years
Why must I push away the ones I love and care for
Making them think Im alright when inside I’m scared and hurt
I’ve lied to them too many times already
Why must I battle with myself everyday
Always choosing the wrong side and ending up in the dark
I’ve lost too many wars in my life it has to stop
When will all this pain that eats away at me end
I’ve become too weak to fight although you think Im strong
All I ever wanted was to have me back and this is what I got
