Nothings ever going to change

I'm slipping away
how long will this pain end?
i don't think i can make another day

why the tears come at night
when no one is around
i wish they would go away
I'm sick of putting up this fight

why do people listen to me?
i just screw up everything cant u see?

my wrists have scars all over them
they are all sacred
just like a precious gem

I've tried to be perfect
just like everyone wants me to be
but nothing was worth it

please stop trying to help me
cant you see that I'm just trying to let you know
that I'm better off on my own?

you think its so easy
but its not
why don't you believe me?

i hate being like this
but i cant stop these thoughts coming into my mind
what are they seeking?
what are they trying to find?

i wish for just one day
i could disappear
and be far far away from here

i wonder what it would be like
would people miss me?
would they even notice that I'm gone?

i think I'm just one big mistake
I'm not meant to be here
I'm sure some people can relate

i feel like a prisoner
trapped inside this broken world
I'm not going anywhere
I'm just running in circles

everyday is just the same
the same old routine
and still
i don't think anythings going to change

*i just wrote that then, so I'm sorry if its crap*