They Say I'm Very Ill

I heard them say that I'm not coping
They say I'm very ill
They say that I need more help than before
And they hand me another pill

I heard him tell my dad I'm weak
And need to be hospitalised
I thought I was just feeling stressed
I should have realised

I saw my dad as he shook his head
Refusing to take me today
To the A+E, where I needed to go
Because he had a busy day

I heard him tell my dad it's urgent
That tonight I could collapse
I heard dad say he didn't want stress
That he wanted to relax

I heard him tell my dad I'm unsteady
That my pulse is far too high
That I need an ECG scan for my heart
I saw my dad sigh

He told my dad he'd book an appointment
At the hospital tomorrow
I sat there staring at the wall
Full of pain and sorrow

On the way home, dad shouting at me
All I could do was cry
Numb, yet filled with endless pain
Only wishing to die

So tonight, I sit here typing away
Listening to the same old song
My hands shaking, as I wish for death
Today has been too long...

Any comments would mean such a lot x