Heart no longer soiled

I'm scared of what you think.
What goes through your head.
I thought you were my missing link.
This feeling can't be worse than being dead.
I loved you with all I had.
You said this wouldn't work and that makes me sad.
I loose sleep on a nightly basis.
You left me suspending me in my heartbroken stasis.
I feel as though all feeling has left me.
I can never feel again, I can't be me.
It was for you you know I would've given anything.
If I could have been something more to than just a play thing.
That time spent feeling part of a better life.
Come down to it now I'm in internal, eternal strife.
Part of me says you'll come back.
But the other part of me says feelings you lack.
I'm finding my self in this endless toil.
I'm up and my lips are now the only thing that you soiled.

As you could tell I'm not in a very good mood. Bad day like usual stuck with my mind on things. Yea those things.

Happy Thanksgiving