If I can close my eyes and let my thoughts be extra
closer to you
Than I would, and than, all of my troubles would be
put to sleep.
I search within everything I see, for comfort, for
freedom,
For some truth.
I know when I see the face of an angel, all of my
fears,
My saddest years of before and to come, all
Vanish; disappear into the thin air.
But I know there stands a different kind of truth, and
in his eyes
Is where it all lays. I see it. I see me. Loneliness.
Truth too painful to understand-
I wonder, how will I ever Find the strength to convey
to you?
That my life is not my own?
Without a word, Silence redeem me.
And I stand alone every day; I stare at the wide sky,
look above
In hopes of finding God waving His sweet hand at me.
In hopes that He would soon call me to be home with
Him,
Because I know when I will be there, I will never know
what
Is like to be locked-Locked away in a penitentiary.
Every day I search for a different light, a path to
lead me somewhere else
But at every turn there stands someone, who is greater
than I am,
Someone who has power-Power to control my each given
step...
...And in those moments, I become congealed...
They pilfer, they take what is mine, and they savor
all of my desires,
Even the simplest things that they announced -Futile.
And what is mine becomes theirs...even my Dreams.
I want to Shriek...to tell them...to let me be...to
let me breathe
But I am frozen; I am incapable of feeling, incapable
of speaking.
Without a word, silence redeem me.
I walk up to my room, close the door gently, and turn
on the screen.
I see the only freedom I know, and then I close my
eyes and search
For you-deeply into my thoughts. I find you, but only
for a moment.
I tell you to search a different path, search a
different hope, and I will
Stay here, remain here to safeguard you like the angel
that You’ve always said
That I am.
I see your face, your fingertips tracing the
tear-Loneliness.
I tell you follow a different dream-but let me to
still reside in your thoughts..
And I open my eyes, tears all dried up. I return to
my bed.
And I begin to dream a dream.
Another night, another hour, another moment where
loneliness dances for me.
Without a word, Silence redeem me.
