I'm Not Doing As Well As You Think

by Paige   Nov 26, 2004



It's been two days now.
I've planned the funeral
And buried that special person.
You tell me you are amazed at how well I'm doing.

I really am not doing well.
I'm just numb and in a fog
That allows me to do whatever needs to be done.
I'm not doing as well as you think.

It's been six months now.
I've gotten a new job
And I go out with friends
You tell me you are amazed at how well I'm doing.

I really am not doing well.
I keep busy and I've learned to hide my feelings from you
Because when I tell you I miss that special person
You tell me it's time to move on and let go

So I pretend, for you, that I have.
I'm not doing as well as you think.

It's been a year now.
And when you ask how I am
I know you don't really want the truth
So I say I'm fine

And you believe me
And tell me you are amazed at how well I'm doing.

I really am not doing well.
I spend my days at work
And my nights alone.
The phone seldom rings anymore

And I am lonelier and more alone
than you want to know
I cry more now than I did at first.
I'm not doing as well as you think.

Could u plzzz coment,

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  • 19 years ago

    by Jac Jenocide Staring Down A Loaded Gun

    Wow that made me tear up i went trho that...but no one died i was in a 2 year relationship and we broke up for the final time..and i buried everything that reminded me of him and i play it off like im ok...6 months later today i still cant help but cry when i hear his name....and the bad thing is i have a new b/f his best friend and he dont even kno i feel...sad i know... i always thought that looking back on the good times wud make me laugh and not cry....all the times we shared him there with me when i was sick or w.e not anymore hes gone and hes with a 15 year old and hes 19......

  • 19 years ago

    by TragicRomance

    This is AWSOME! If you ever need to talk, e mail me @ evilrotcduckie@yahoo.com. I am only 15, but TRUST ME, I've been through it all! Great job! Keep up the good work! :)

  • 19 years ago

    by nadine

    that is exactly how i feel, everyone around me tells me he is in a better place now jus let it be, but he was my dad and i can never let it be so i am jus dealing with it in my own way, and nobody knows how much im really dying inside

  • 19 years ago

    by Ashes

    Oh geez, I can completely relate to someone not really knowing how you feel. Great job.

  • 19 years ago

    by Timothy B

    for someone who says she don't write good, your good. keep it up

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