Shades of Grey

Walking down the street
Hang my head low
Let the cool breeze carry my feet
Watching life ahead of me grow

Drift past the bottle shop
Early in the morn
With the temptation to stop
And forget until tomorrow dawn

Step through the open door
Of my empty apartment
Wishing I had a little more
Living with my petty possessions which are irrelevant

Leave the house again
To clear my head
It’s now at 6am
Always thinking of the bitter words she said

The words forever running through my mind
As she left me alone
And left me behind
Still waiting for her to call on the phone

Every day, I seem to drift further away
Realities leaving me behind
Nothing’s black and white, there’s too many shades of Grey
I walk down the street in dismay
Each day loosing a bit more of my mind

Walking past the place where we used to sit
On the grass where we would lay
The memories enter my head bit by bit
Remembering the nice things she would say

Crawl into the shop where we met
Now the shop’s dark and silent
But the memories I can’t forget
All the time together which was spent

Travel slowly through the park
Where we shared our first kiss
And where we started loves little spark
But is still don’t know why she did this

Why did she leave me behind?
I always treated her right
Is it a new love she is to find?
I pray she’ll come home every night

She was my universe
And always will be
In one day it all got worse
But I’ll never stop loving thee

I sit down at the park seat
And think of how it used to be
Dream of they day my heart will again beat
I wish she would come back and see

I glide past the river
And see a pair of butterflies
And I shed a tear
That was how we used to be
Did the love inside her die?

The sun now rises over the earth’s crest
So I flee back to my home
Live seems to be hell at it’s best
On my way back, nothing seems real as I walk in my zone

I slide the key into the groove
And push open my door
And hear the ring of my phone, so smooth
Answering seemed to by my biggest flaw

Pushing through the receiver
Was the angels’ voice
With horrible things that angel had to deliver
With only one thing to say, that angel gave me no choice

I listen to each and every bitter word
Wishing it was a nightmare
The things she was saying was absurd
I have never been so scared

‘We can only be friends,
I’m better off alone”
Is this how my heart is s’posed to mend?
Is she never returning home?

I try and utter a few words
But I find it hard to breathe
So there was nothing to be heard
And the tears roll down my face as I start to grieve

Then my angel hangs up the phone
Now my universe is fading away
I have been left alone
Forever from this day…

© Ben.S 2004