Happy

At school i look like a happy person
but inside I'm just cursing
I want to die
but i can't, believe me I've tried

Then why have i cried all these lonely nights
after they leave and turn out the lights
I want to go away
but God must want me here to stay

I'm totally lost
and i need your help
guide me through this
can't you hear my quiet yelp?

Please God, its all I'm asking
I need you before it's too late
before i go away
and walk through those golden gates

Now it's the end
no one cared
and no one helped
but it was all that i could bare