Tom

*i wrote this 4 me m8 tom*

I'm writing this for everyone,
Who cant make up there mind,
I'm writing this for everyone,
Who's life's left them behind,

My life hasn't been exactly easy,
Ive hit some bumps and cracks,
Looking for stability,
And everything my world lacks,

My family don't seem to care,
It doesn't matter what I do,
They ignore my cries for help,
And my drug addiction to,

I smoke all the drugs I need,
Still wanting more and more,
Trying to run from my past,
My wounds still open and sore,

My past never made any sense,
Anew curse everyday,
Sick of my fathers mistakes,
I wasn't going to turn out that way,

I wasn't going to be a acoholic,
Or beat my child as he did,
Hes damaged my life forever,
For not saying he loved his kid,

Nobody ever showed me love,
Until some day I met someone,
They text me everyday,
Just to say I love you hun,

Her love grew stronger and stronger,
Till she couldn't stop thinking about me,
It had to end soon,
I couldn't love her back you see,

Deep down I really am in love,
Just not how she needs me to be,
I can never be who she wants,
Because who she wants just isn't me,

I Tried so hard to love her,
But it became so difficult,
I cant get to close,
My heart just comes to a halt,

Sometimes I text her though,
To make sure shes still there,
Shes my first and only love,
But shes drowning in despair,

Ive never had a good life,
Or even a family,
You think its so sad how Ive never felt love,
But this is just me.