Dying silently on my floor

Sitting here again,
i know exactly where i am.
mummy has put me in my place
with the palm of her hand.

bruised all over,
crying and bleeding,
it's finally hit me
this is a pointless life I've been leading.

i have nothing to live for,
no one to care.
i don't want to live any more
but by dying, I'm giving in to her.

so I'll carry on living
this pointless life
I'm a broken child
with no friends but the knife

i push it against me
and I feel relieved
but mummy is everywhere
there is no room to breathe

sitting small and broken
praying to the lord above
wondering what it feels
like to love or be loved

I'm sick and tired of living,
of wanting to be dead
of fake smiles and long lies
when I'm dying inside my head

so tonight I'm giving in
because i can't take anymore
so now I'll go and die
silently on my floor