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I said I would love you forever,
whether we were together or not.
Now it's over, and I see you
It feels as though I've been shot.

I hate seeing you smile
and making it without me.
I pretend like I don't care,
but there's something no one can see.

I hide behind these smiles
I hide behind a fake laugh.
I tell myself it's over and done,
but I feel like I'm missing my other half.

Is it normal to feel this way,
or does it mean I'm still in love?
This burden is too much to handle
I wish I would drift to up above.

I see you with my best friend
and it hurts worse than anything.
I want to run and yell
until my throat burns and stings.

I want to tell you how I feel
but what if you push me away?
I don't think I can go on
if I have to see you with her another day.

There are so many things I'd get,
but there are also so many things I'd lose.
Is love worth this at all
Or would the other road be better to choose?

I miss looking into your eyes
and knowing what I said was true.
I miss talking for hours on end
and spending every second thinking of you.

I miss kissing your soft lips
and knowing that your there.
I miss crying on your shoulder
and knowing that someone would care.

When we were in each others arms,
my heart felt like it could explode.
Now I see you, and
she's the one you kiss and hold.

I lost my chance,
I had to screw things up again.
I wish I could tell you I still love you
and I will until the very end.